I enter my
Office ,to a very unknown world. That was the day when all this anguish,
ecstasy started .. the tell tale story of hope and despair started in my life.
Till date i
had been a very happy go lucky lazy kind of girl. All i cared was , emotions, feelings,
be they mine or anybody else's. After entering this world i got to feel that i
am actually a fish out of water. The words "Cut throat competition",
"professionalism" ,"experience","deception", it all seemed to be personified suddenly. I wasn't prepared for this, not so early. (May be i am going to remain this way,
coz i seem to be way too stubborn to change myself. And why not ,the best things
that i ever got in lyf , i got it just by being me - silly stupid, stubborn,
confused. but hey .. i am stubborn only when it comes to changing myself for
the situation or people.). My life suddenly went through a juggernaut of
sentimental and emotional outbursts, that only took place in the inside of my
fragile heart. That was the time i suddenly start feeling the lowest in my
life.. never earlier had felt so. I have been in different kind of fixes throughout
the little span time that i have spent on this earth, but this situation was
strange altogether, completely alienating. To add more to the woes of my life,
i am not blessed with a beauty that somehow helps quite some people to get away
from atleast half of what I felt i was going through.
BUT
HEY...!!! Thats not what I generally wrote in my earlier blogs. Yes.. It was
always in relation with someone with a touch of fiction or a fictious image
with a splash of reality.
Yes I am
getting around that really.
I dunno if
i really doing a hasty job concluding something. But the person that i would be
talking about later, the thought of him itself is so interesting although quite
confusing (and complicated too, its just about the initial thought, you see
:P), that i couldnt resist writing this up.
So, going
back to the day where we started knowing him. I was all confused and was in a
total different mood as there was a kind of tragedy bak home and i had had a
full throttle crying session in the morning, until I made a very silly and
dangerous decision to travel alone,swapping two buses towards home.. A 40 hours
long journey. So all this made me look like a total unenthusiastic moron.
I was
introduced to the bigboss by a senior associate. And then was made to sit at a
desk somewhere near the senior boss. It was Thursday, and then I was informed
that the lead is not available he was in the night shift. And then I was
introduced to someone else from my team. I raised my head to look at two
inerested eyes. In that two minutes i was told that my lead and this person
would guide me for some time now. I looked into that persons eyes and told
myself "okay, he is also gonna be a mentor for me.." Believe me .. I
do have a thing about first impressions. And I know that the first impression
is always the lasting one and the Last one too. There was such a flood of
questions and a gush of anxiety I felt running in my veins, but I was not in
the condition to talk then.
MR. EYES as
would like to name him for now, helped me set a new password. I was configuring
the outlook on my system. Eyes asked where I was from…? I knew there was a buzz
in the ODC that there some girls from Nagpur and nearby. But I guess I was a
disappointment ... :P Neither was I the
Nagpur gal, nor was i the looker, which every team wishes to have when they
know that there’s a girl in the team. (my
poor team..!!!) He was from Nagpur. I m so sorry, Eyes, that day u saw an
aunty,, loollllzz...It had been a real sadness.. iguess so.. he he …
